I worked late tonight, trying to get my 30 hours of continuing education crammed into one week's time. Spending almost an entire day in the ER with Garrett yesterday didn't help much either. And it is back to school time, so lunch breaks are consumed with shopping, after work I run errands. Blaine's 18th birthday is coming up. Football season has started. I have continuing ed for our foster care license that is due. A surprise inspection coming up from our agency. The dogs shots are due. More adoption paperwork to be completed and notarized. The list goes on and on.....
Anyways, I got home and was mentally exhausted. Didn't have the energy to do much, but sit in the floor with the littles while they were playing. Little Miss Ruffle Bottom plopped down in my lap, as she always does. Prince B followed. She and Prince B start playing with a toy. They were having a ball. Giggles turned into huge belly laughs. Baby belly laughs, is there anything MORE precious in the world!? They played for about 20 minutes, both sitting in my lap, laughing and bonding.
I sat there, holding these two precious babies that we will soon be adopting. And I felt peace and happiness despite my previous state of exhaustion.
For YEARS, I prayed, I cried, I begged, I wanted, I doubted, I worried, I obsessed..... for a little girl. And here I am, 5 years later, FINALLY holding my baby girl, and her precious brother too. When we started this journey, we wanted a little girl. Little did I know, that God had a little girl AND a little boy as rewards for our faith in him. I couldn't have picked two more amazing children if I were able to hand pick my son and daughter. Thank you God!
I was looking over my old blog a while back. There is an entry there from the day before Little Miss Ruffle Bottom was born. I had been to a bible study. In the weeks, months and years preceeding this night, I was a neurotic mess when it came to this adoption process. That night at bible study, I just felt complete peace. I blogged about peace. I had this HUGE sense of peace in me, that said everything would be ok, just hang in there. The VERY NEXT DAY, my princess was born. How amazing is that????????
God IS good! And suddenly, I am not so exhausted anymore!